What is the point?
Instead of feeling antagonized, disappointed, hurt or sadness, I felt that what I have felt before proved that I was correct all along.
How long can someone who doesn't love you, be able to consistently show his fake affection for you, or that he seemingly care for you? How can I have felt so strongly that all those 'sweet' feelings were only for a very short time?
History has repeated itself. The pages have been turned back, and I am now registering in all the same thing again. It felt like I am going to sit through some big entrance exams. Am I supposed to feel distraught? Pressured? Something else I cannot described?
However, I felt nothing. Yes, perhaps a little pissed. However, I do feel strange as to why he bothered to waste his time and energy when I was back in Singapore. Was it because he was bored and had nothing better to do? It seems like it is, since now he has a job. Or perhaps he had an ulterior motive?
I cannot accept anyone who claimed that he has the 'intention to marry me' dare defy my mum's words: TO CONSTANTLY STAY IN TOUCH. I wasn't even asking for a lot. However, it has been 3 weeks since he even messaged, least to say, call. Wasn't it the same old story as why we separated in the first place?
It only shows he's not worthy of my time and feelings at all. Therefore, once again, I have deleted his contacts, and I hope he will never call again. And I mean it. There is no point. I do not want to go through this episode over and over and over again. I am no longer the young girl who can afford wasting my youth on someone who isn't even worth it. It's time to move on to other more important goals in my life. And also, to meet someone new.
I regret having wasted my time in Singapore. I could have used all those time spent with him accompanying my mom at home, or meet up with more friends. I shouldn't even have let him meet my mum. What is the point? It's not like we are going to have a future together.
I must have been a heart-breaker in my past life to be facing all these shit.... Yes, that's right.
How long can someone who doesn't love you, be able to consistently show his fake affection for you, or that he seemingly care for you? How can I have felt so strongly that all those 'sweet' feelings were only for a very short time?
History has repeated itself. The pages have been turned back, and I am now registering in all the same thing again. It felt like I am going to sit through some big entrance exams. Am I supposed to feel distraught? Pressured? Something else I cannot described?
However, I felt nothing. Yes, perhaps a little pissed. However, I do feel strange as to why he bothered to waste his time and energy when I was back in Singapore. Was it because he was bored and had nothing better to do? It seems like it is, since now he has a job. Or perhaps he had an ulterior motive?
I cannot accept anyone who claimed that he has the 'intention to marry me' dare defy my mum's words: TO CONSTANTLY STAY IN TOUCH. I wasn't even asking for a lot. However, it has been 3 weeks since he even messaged, least to say, call. Wasn't it the same old story as why we separated in the first place?
It only shows he's not worthy of my time and feelings at all. Therefore, once again, I have deleted his contacts, and I hope he will never call again. And I mean it. There is no point. I do not want to go through this episode over and over and over again. I am no longer the young girl who can afford wasting my youth on someone who isn't even worth it. It's time to move on to other more important goals in my life. And also, to meet someone new.
I regret having wasted my time in Singapore. I could have used all those time spent with him accompanying my mom at home, or meet up with more friends. I shouldn't even have let him meet my mum. What is the point? It's not like we are going to have a future together.
I must have been a heart-breaker in my past life to be facing all these shit.... Yes, that's right.
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poor sister, I hope u can at least call him to find out what exactly is going on, give him a last chance to explain himself and if by then, u find him still unrepentful den at least u can screw him and bid goodbye...
PS: not that I have high hopes that he has changed but i feel it is juz fair to hear his side of the story since u both r like MILES apart...
it is no point going round in circles. u know what i mean.
加油！
if your heart still misses, longs or even think about him for once, you have failed in 'forgetting' or 'ignoring' he once existed in your heart.